If you’ve been visiting this blog over the last few weeks, you’ll see I’ve been wrestling with some issues.
Things in my life have been getting overwhelming and I had been focusing too much on what I consider “busy work” as a way to cope.
Normally in this situation, I do a reset and things get back on track. However, not this time. Because technically, this time was different in many ways.
My partner and I had a long heart-to-heart over the last few days, mainly because he is wonderful at knowing how I’m feeling and can see things I’m often blind to.
Like the fact that I’ve not taken a real break in over 2 years. For all the breaks I’ve taken, many of them still included some kind of work. Many days I work 10-12 hours a day. Always doing something.
Now I used to at least have some weekends free, but that kinda stopped and I have less and less free time during the weekends. Some of which is due to what’s been happening.
My partner also pointed out for the last 5 months, we’ve been stretched emotionally-thin with everything that’s been going on. So, on top of my normal work, there has been all this going on…
For those who don’t know:
Throughout the last few months of 2018, my cat who I had for 17 years was diagnosed with severe stomach cancer and following surgery needed a lot of care before sadly needing to be put to sleep just before Christmas.
Throughout January, I was in and out of the emergency room and when I was out, I was on pretty strong painkillers that left me fuzzy-headed and nauseated.
February we moved house. So from late 2018 to February, we had been going through the stressful process of buying a house, meeting with solicitors, sorting home buyers reports, visiting the mortgage broker… then in Feb we had to move in and that took a lot of time.
Finally March… throughout all the above, we also had a family member who was diagnosed as terminal. In the last two months, they have deteriorated and we don’t have much time.
The Rise of Depression
It’s been a while since I suffered depression but it appears my depression has reared its head and taken up residence for a while.
This has been the driving factor behind me not looking after myself like I’m supposed to and why much of my creativity has faded away. Always such an insidious effect of depression.
What this all means
At my partner’s request, and because I know I need it, I’ve decided to take a real break. By this, I mean a full, month-long hiatus from (almost) all things online and many offline too.
My Life Audit revealed that there are some pieces, I really don’t want back on the board and others I’m still on the fence about. So I need some breathing space and time to get well and to make some decisions.
Now, because I like to be neat, this hiatus won’t start until May.
What about this blog?
I won’t be posting on Mondays or Fridays throughout May. However, if I can get my current May guest posters to give me their articles early, I am hoping to get them scheduled so there will still be posts appearing.
Any comments I receive in May will be replied to in June.
What about #TheMerryWriter?
I’ve discussed my Twitter Hashtag game with my co-host, Rachel Poli. We actually had a plan for May but that will have to be pushed back to June. Instead, we will be running a series of questions each week in May.
I will still have them on my feed so my followers can still play, but I won’t be responding to anyone. However, Rachel will still be active in May and then we’ll be back with more meaty questions in June.
What about the Newsletter?
There will still be a Newsletter at the end of this month (announcing my 3 giveaway winners) and there will be one at the end of May too.
What about Facebook & Instagram?
I may schedule a few things to post throughout the month on Facebook, but Instagram will most likely fall quiet during that time. I will not be responding to comments during the hiatus.
What about your writing?
This break will hopefully let my creativity bubble up again. At the moment, my depression has squeezed a lot of the joy I have for my writing as well as many other fun hobbies.
What about the Monthly Goals?
My monthly goals have always worked well for me when I’m balanced. But right now, they are on hold while I give myself and those around me the time and energy needed.
I want to say a big thank you to all the support I’ve received from people whether it’s on this blog, on social media or those of you who reached out in email.
Some people were aware of just what has been happening others have not, and yet I received a wonderful outpour of care and concern from people who know things have been getting difficult.
This post was to shed a little more light on things and help me to explain my upcoming hiatus.
I have always been in awe at the support I get from the blogging and online community and it is truly appreciated.
For the rest of April will continue as normal, then I will be bidding you a short farewell throughout May 🙂