Back to the Bean: A Writer’s Letter to No by Kim Chance

This week’s guest poster is the lovely Kim Chance who you might know from her successful Youtube channel. Her post is a fascinating letter to No. Enjoy 🙂

Kim Chance.jpgDear No,

We need to talk. I’ve been putting this off for a while now, but I think it’s finally time for me to get this off my chest.

I hope you won’t take this personally because as cliché as it sounds, it really is me and not you….well, for the most part.

It’s time for the truth, and it boils down to this: I’m exhausted of you, No. Completely and utterly exhausted. There. I said it, and I’m sorry. But it’s true.

When we first met, you hardly bothered me.

In fact, every time you walked in with that ridiculous sashay of yours, I would laugh and tell myself that you didn’t matter because I was much bigger than you. However, lately, you’ve grown in size. Like a freaking beanstalk, you’ve gone from being a tiny little bean to being this enormous, ever-growing plant that’s stuck smack dab in the middle of my life. It’s getting a little harder to pretend that I’m not frustrated by you.

When I open my email inbox to check for responses to my latest batch of queries, there you are.

When I sit down at my computer to work on my new manuscript, you refuse to let me think that any idea I come up with is valuable.

When I research agents, you constantly tease me, especially when I think I’ve found the perfect fit for my manuscript.

When I enter a writing contest or a pitch party, you’re on the sidelines waiting with a pointed finger and a maniacal laugh.

You’re always there. Every step I take, there you are. And you want to know what I’ve realized, No? You’re kind of a jerk.

Now, I don’t mean to hurt your feelings, but it’s the truth, and it’s high time that I do something about it.

Want to know why? Because you’re starting to become more than the beanstalk, No. You’ve become the Giant in my life—this huge, looming shadow hanging over my head. I can’t seem to outrun you, and your constant presence has attracted some very unwelcome additions to our little party.

I know they’re your friends and all, but Doubt, Fear, and Insecurity suck—like in a “talking during the movie”, “ate the last slice of pizza” kind of way. I’ve put up with them for as long as I could, but they’ve worn out their welcome, and they need to go.

I’m through with Doubt whispering in my head. I’m done with Fear waking me up in the middle of the night and keeping me awake. And most of all, I’m over Insecurity making me feel like everyone else deserves it and I don’t, that I’m not good enough and never will be.

Because I do. And I am.

So, I think it’s time I broke up with you, No. I need you to be the bean again, not the beanstalk and definitely not the Giant. I need you to be just one small part of my life, not the single thing that controls it.

I’m not saying we won’t see each other because we most certainly will, but I hope when we pass each other on the street, we can wave kindly to one another and know that we’ve helped each other to grow. That’s what friends do, after all, and I’d really like to be your friend if I can.

Tomorrow is a new day, and I’m going to hold my head up, work as hard as I possibly can, and keep believing that dreams can come true.

Because they do. And I have to believe that mine will.

From now on, when I open my email, I will view each rejection as a stepping stone toward my end goal. When I sit down to work on my new book, I’ll give each new idea its far shot, and if it crashes and burns? Well, at least I’ve figured out what won’t work. I will try again and again until I get it right.

When I’m researching agents, I won’t get discouraged when they say they don’t want my type of story. I’ll simply celebrate even more when I find a few who do. And when I enter a contest or a pitch party, I’ll stop seeing it as the only measure of my book’s worth. I’ll use it to make new friends and learn as much as I can.

I will write every day, with my whole heart.  Not because I need any kind of approval, but because it is simply who I am and what I love.

I have no idea where my journey will lead and to be honest, I think you and I will be seeing a whole more of each other before we can cleanly depart from one another. But at least now, you’ll be the bean again and I can go back to being me—and that’s what counts.

I like to think of us like this: We’re two leaves in a swirling wind—mashed together at times, but ultimately meant to end up in very different places. When I get to that place, No, I’ll think of you and forever be grateful for how you’ve helped shape me into the writer, the person I am today.

I’m sorry it didn’t work out between us, but No? I’m braver and stronger because of you. Remember that. I know I will.

Thanks for understanding.



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KEEPER by Kim Chance

Magic always leaves a mark.
When the ghost of a 200-year-old witch attacks her on the road, sixteen-year-old bookworm Lainey Styles is determined to find a logical explanation. But even with the impossible staring her in the face, Lainey refuses to buy into all that “hocus pocus nonsense”—until she finds a photograph linking the witch to her dead mother.
After the library archives and even Google come up empty, Lainey gives in and consults a psychic. There she discovers that, like her mother, she’s a Keeper: a witch with the exclusive ability to unlock and wield the Grimoire, a dangerous spellbook.
But the Grimoire is missing, stolen years ago by a malevolent warlock known as the Master.
Now that Lainey’s true heritage has been uncovered, she’s the Master’s only hope in opening the Grimoire, where a powerful spell is locked inside—a spell that would allow him to siphon away the world’s magic. In an effort to force her hand, the Master kidnaps Lainey’s uncle and offers a trade: the spell for his life.
With the help of her comic-book-loving, adventure-hungry best friend and an enigmatic but admittedly handsome street fighter, Lainey must leave behind her life of books and studying to prepare for the biggest test of all. She must steal back the book…before her uncle and the entire supernatural race pay the Master’s price.
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A big thanks to the wonderful Kim for contributing to this blog, I hope you all enjoyed it and do make sure you check out her social media pages. 🙂

I’ll be back this Friday with my own post. In the meantime, if you are enjoying these posts do drop me a message. I love hearing from my readers.

Happy writing


NB: photo supplied by Kim 🙂



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