Being ill made me fall behind in a lot of things, work, my online shop, my degree… so I have had to work overtime, cram in study and complete orders.
Things are starting to settle back into more of a routine. So with this I have taken stock. My partner inspired this as he is a creative, intellectually hungry person who likes to read up on new subjects, try new projects and generally overwhelm himself.
He recently sat down and went through all the things he wanted to do and thought he wanted to do. Breaking them down into Do it Now, Do it later, Never going to do it, Maybe do it.
When we are children and teenagers there is the fluidity that we can do anything and most don’t know what they want to do, which if fine. When you are in your 20s there is a feel that you should start knowing what you want to do and the things you are interested become a little firmer. Hit 30s and apparently this is set in stone. We often do this to ourselves.
Say you wanted to learn a new language when you were 18. You studied a bit in your 20s but nothing major because already you have lost interest. In your 30s you should definitely let it go, but a part of you clings to it. Not because you want to do it but because it feels like a part of you, that if you let go you release a piece of your identity.
But we are fluid creatures, we move, we change and things we enjoy can shift, things that mean a lot can become insignificant as we get older. It can be hard accepting this.
Following my partner’s example (but making it less listy) I made note of the topics in my own life and then condensed it to what I would actually like to do. Where my time should REALLY be given. (obviously I have to work and do chores but I originally had a list of things that I may have enjoyed doing when I was younger or thought I wanted to do or worse, paid money out for but now they didn’t interest me).
So I have cut them away. Rather than dragging a cartload of “projects” and “topics” to complete when there is barely any interest, I have just noted what makes me happy, what I want to spend my spare time doing.
* “Family” embodied not only those of blood, but those of friendship and those animals I share my life with.
I am a visual person so I needed something colourful, visual that I could put on my wall and see. Now I might still not get them all done, in fact some will be given more time than others. But that’s okay. In the end this is a visual representation of what’s important to me and what I want to do.
By cutting away everything that isn’t important I can stop wasting my time and energy on things that have no meaning, give no real joy and that I have been clinging to as “who I was” not who I am.
What about you? Do you need to take a good look at your list? or your cloud bubbles? You may find yourself feeling better if you do.
Share them with me. 🙂
PS: As you can see “blogging” is in mine, I especially love this blog as I always enjoyed the kind and friendly comments I got on dA for my writing tutorials and I want to go back to helping writers. So hopefully, there will be more posts coming up.