Being ill made me fall far behind in a lot of things; work, my online shop, my degree, my writing.
So I have had to work overtime, cram in extra study-time and work longer to complete orders.
Things are starting to settle back into more of a routine. So with this, I have taken stock.
My partner inspired this as he is a creative, intellectually-hungry person who likes to read up on new subjects, try new projects and generally overwhelm himself.
He recently sat down and went through all the things he wanted to do and thought he wanted to do. Breaking them down into:
- Do it Now
- Do it later
- Never going to do it
- Maybe do it
The Freedom of Youth
When we are children and teenagers there is the fluidity that we can do anything and most don’t know what they want to do, which is fine.
When you are in your 20s there is a feeling that you should start knowing what you want to do. That the things you are interested in becoming a little firmer.
Hit 30s and apparently this is set in stone. Never to be changed EVER. We often do this to ourselves.
Say you wanted to learn a new language when you were 18. You studied a bit in your 20s but nothing major because already you have lost interest.
In your 30s you should definitely let it go, but a part of you clings to it. Not because you want to do it but because it feels like a part of you, that if you let go you release a piece of your identity.
But we are fluid creatures, we move, we change and things we enjoy can shift, things that mean a lot can become insignificant as we get older. It can be hard accepting this.
The Mental Clutter
This clinging to ideas and aspects of ourselves can be a type of mental clutter. We are hoarding the past pieces that maybe, some of which, should be released.
Following my partner’s example (but making it less listy) I made note of the topics in my own life and then condensed them to what I would actually like to do and where my time should REALLY be given.
I obviously have to work and do chores but I originally had a list of things that I may have enjoyed doing when I was younger or thought I wanted to do or worse, paid money out for but now they didn’t interest me.
So I have cut them away. Rather than dragging around a cartload of “projects” and “topics” to complete when there is barely any interest, I have just noted what makes me happy, what I want to spend my spare time doing.
And here it is:
I am a visual person, so I needed something colourful, visual that I could put on my wall and see.
Now, I might still not get them all done, in fact, some will be given more time than others. But that’s okay. In the end, this is a visual representation of what’s important to me and what I want to do.
By cutting away everything that isn’t important I can stop wasting my time and energy on things that have no meaning, give no real joy and that I have been clinging to as “who I was” not “who I am now”.
What about you? Do you need to take a good look at your list?